what's in a name? defining...

when there is a lack of the physical affection and QT, i tend to look forward the other little things. hence, i do feel like the gf who stays in the closet. mayb cos it's my personality. i'm shy but not that shy. it's like the time u call me elmi. even my close friends dun. it feels odd and mostly distant. i hate it...

mayb it's e weather, stress from school and everything else. sucks.

i do miss u.

am dying from the teaching schedule... stay at arm's length, vaguely hostile