Swimming

It's finally not raining and i'm going swimming yeah!!!!

perfects, augemented and diminishes

I am still picking up the nonsense from all the crap. In all due fairness, it's the bloody previous fault and not the poor boy's. I have all but 6 classes to make it all better. People who cannot handle intervals and chromatics should be barred from teaching. If u can't teach, can't mark, for heaven's sake don't bloody teach!!!! You are ruining people's education!!!! so irresponsible. i have to go shower, continue to re-mark and cuddle the cat.

Erdi has diarra.....

Ooh... scandal today! so exciting! i totally enjoy tea with gee! haha. I'm such a bitch!

PPC and under

It's nice how the strangest little corner hides the littlest tastiest food. Gone is my tua teng and hot and soupy. Even though the strange ah beng waits there. A place that serves lamb with mint sauce can't be that bad. and yes, it does make my knees go weak. I endorse mint sauce!!!

You just need to wait 14 more years. For you, of all people deserve 5 kids running around more than anyone else. Please remind me that the next time we talk, i shall be chirpy and positive and not rub any neurocrosies off u.

I adore that u'll always listen, pls don't worry. If your hunch is right, it'll all work out fine. My sentiments exactly =)

Mouldy

I'm the undisputed queen of moulding.... i can spend 4 hours rotting in the schol counter and just have dessert and wait to go home. So exciting my life. I need to grab dinner. Fridge is full of microwavable nonsense, ceral, milk and cheese. Wine too.

Day1 and counting. I already miss them. Sucks.Though i amused that my parents think that i can't take care of myself and have left instructions to look after the house pasted all over.

It's nice to have someone in your life and not fight half the time :)

It's amazing how some people jus take things the easy way, produce crap on their job and get away with the nonsense they produce. And it's even more atrocious how i end up being responsible to something like that. Scenario: Crap teacher teaches nonsense to students who get transferred to me due to an amazingly unavailable timeslot situation. To my utter horrible on top of not being able to play scales both hands at grade 4, cannot read notes, no rhythm and lasy bum. He is registered for a theory exam for early march and then he proceeds to fail very terribly the first specimen paper i've given him.... So, i have to do wonders in one and a half months time if not, MY bonus would be effected, i will get a Dear miss teo... letter from my boss and of course my reputation gets flushed down the toilet too.... WTF!

So this sums up my first week at work....

New year, new slate

Let's start the new year on a happy note. First Resolutions, which i do keep. at least the majority of them. Here goes:

• pick up a new sport (which was suppose to be diving but now, looks like it's gotto be something else)
• continue to exercise regularly
• Finish up music dip
• get new job or better terms
• grow out my hair
• take good care of erdi
• clear bad debts
• save
• buy new slippers
• watch alot of shows at least once a week
• start dating (unbiasedly)
• be nice again
• plan my regular 2 trips
• stay clear of men who make me cry. (Be it a tear or a blanket of it)
• Plan holiday with parents
• pick my recitals more carefully
• buy a solid jazz cd very often
• practise my ass off if not i'm so gonna fail

For i deserve better. May 2005 be a good year. Hey, e date says it all. Good omen!

all the little things

Last night, joey came to pick me up in the car and we just sat in it at this strange park drank green tea and talked and whined to each other about our screwed up lives. I went home still feeling very down. Miles davis later i still couldn't sleep and zhong sms-ed me. He was sleepless and down too. So he asked me, wat am i sad about. i replied :"all the little things..." and i though about all the little things and drifted to sleep. So i woke up stll not feelin much better but perhaps letting it out will make them even smaller.

I'm stuck in this rut where i can't seem to dig up the love or motivation to progress in my music studies and i haven't got much time. I miss having someone regular in my life to share my day at the end. I miss having someone kiss me goodnight, good morning or hold my hands as we fall asleep. I had a crappy xmas and new year. It's lousy that i have problems opening up and relating to people. I've lost the ability to be sociable. I'm not cute and bubbly anymore. Erdi is still weak and skinny. I'm still broke. they've ended the runs of my favourite shows on tv. I'm stll and tired of having all these squabbles over nonsense. I have to teach everyday. I haven't been able to swim for the last week. I need new slippers cos my birkies have been ruined by all rain. I need to have afternoon tea with someone. I watched before sunset and cried for 2 days.

"Maybe it's true that if we lie long enough, our bodies get conditioned to it and we convince ourselves to believe. But then again, doesn't it some how come out later? It always does, be it a year or 5."
Foru can hang around a litlle longer, u will know that i'm not like that...It's time i go on about happy again. It's time :)